MIGRAINE 6.11.12

TONIGHT.... I dont even know how to write anymore. So I guess I will write like this until I decide where and how I will post online.... Notepad> Hey it gets it out of my head and down. MIGRAINE, .....I feel there is this Mid-evil battle waged within my head. Splitting, cracking, crashing, swirling, throbbing struggle that is pounding in time with my heart! With every heartbeat a battle drum going off! BOOM! BooM! BOOM! BooM! Cursing me with pain, clashing in the middle with light and dark, good versus evil. Good always wins but sometimes it takes hours or days for the battle to end. Each strand of hair sometimes a weight pulling me down, anchoring my pain. In the middle of my brain an epicenter of War. rhythmic with each noise I hear, with even the faintest. And with the slightest of light my eyes seemingly pound as well. My ears ringing with the clash of highly weilded metal or high pitched bells maybe even crisp crystal under a wet finger.A constant ringing that is always with me ,heard greater in the silence, but there as well in the loudness of my day. The pain more intense when I focus on it, fades to numb when I am less focused. I feel my head will explode at points. The war stretching onward at full intensity. I grasp at it and push against the pain. It is as though its heavy with pain, onfire inside with the thickness of it. At times it helps to relieve the pressure to push back as hard as I am being pushed with the pressure building inside. Sudden movements that make me want to go to my knees are well aquainted enemies. I learn to pace my moving so as not to upset any balance. To bend over would feel as if my head would implode and explode simultaneously. A rushing of static so heavy its weighted and impossible to gather extended thought. Maybe its screaming give me a break already! I can not function full paced constantly . Oh Brain, Why must you split so? When will you let me go? You old friend and wicked enemy.....Can you not just let me be? MIGRAINE.